=Ugly King (Çirkin Kral)=

I am very very angry right now. It's something like i have an inflamation i my mind. My face is red and stretched cos of anger. Here, the reasons of my anger:

-My ADSL router finally came from repairing. But i still can't use it; cos i need a user name for it. I called help desk number of ADSL for 8-9 times! They couldn't solve the problem and the officer of it said me 'If you don't have information about system, call computer operator'!!!!!!!!!!! This made me very very very angry:@ How can he say that I DON'T HAVE INFORMATION ABOUT SYSTEM?????????????????????
So; i shouted at him; and closed the phone. I'm still using fucking slow and expensive home telephone connection!!

-I didn't study my lessons today; it irritates me:@

-A few months ago; my mum allowed me to go duck-meeting at august. But 3 days ago; when i reminded it to her for vize stuff; she said that 'She didn't allow me, i didn't ask her before, how can i visit another country by alone'!!!!!!!!! I got really really angry. I shouted, sweared to her. Now i don't talk to her. I don't eat anything at home(i'm starving!!!), i don't tell where i'm going, i don't answer phones, i always hit and kick my brothers(which makes her angry), i come back home late...Gosh, i hate her... But despite of everything; i'll be there!!!

-Tomorrow i'll take some photos of me for our school annual. I am so ugly that i am thinking about a hair style which can hide my face mostly:@

-I can't move some videos to my iPod! gossshhhh:@ hate hate hate!!!

-I can't add a pic to my blog profile!!! I tried so hard for it; but still can't do it!!!!!!!!!!!!!! f***!!

-I usually feel that nobody 'really' cares about me; but i can't tell the reasons; cos i feel like i offend myself to other poeple:@

Now i should go; cos Beko insist on me to call him right now.

helloWs!!

This is me at the above. I took it with my new web-cam yesterday:) . I know it is blurry; but i liked this pic. Cos i look "not-ugly" on it :))

My internet router is broken again; cos it fell down a lot(my room is so messy; so cables mixed, i stepped on cables and router fell down for a lot of time); it'll be repaired in 30 days; so i use home telephone connection for internet. As you can guess; it is very expensive. So; i won' be able to chat with you guys for a while :(. I'll miss you guys!!! :)

Now i must go; cos i'll have maths exam tomorrow and teacher is strict; we can't cheat :(( ; so i must learn the subjects :))
See Ya!
Hoşçakal!
Tschüß!
Adijo!
Ahoj!

If i can't; then nobody can!

Now time is nearly 03.00 am here. I'll go to school 4 hours later; and i will probably sleep at least 1 hour later. Cos there is a composition competition at my school- about 'Atatürk's religion ideas and secularism'. This subject is one of my professions. I've been searching informations about this for more than 2 weeks. The last day for giving the compositions over is tomorrow, actually, TODAY!!! And i wrote only 1 paper!!! :(( :'(( I am very lazy. i have been knowing about this competition for 3 weeks; but i am writing it at the last day, at the last hours.. Now there are a lot of newspapers, books, papers on my desk just about this composition competition topic. And do you know why i care this much about this competition? COS I WANNA WIN IT!!!! I MUST!!! THERE IS NO WAY!!! I DESERVE TO WIN IT, NOBODY ELSE IN MY SCHOOL, AND I'LL BEAT ALL OF THEM!!!!
i know i'm too ambitious...When it's about politics, i become a little strict ;)
anyway; it's time to back to keep writing...
I'll do it!!

Sensiz olmaz..bensiz olmaz...

Hiya! I took this pic today; it wrotes some other time below of the pic; but it is not true;)

=Bülent Ortaçgil-Sensiz Olmaz= Bu şarkı beni anlatıyor. Ben narsistim!!

Bu sabah yalnız uyandım
Sensiz olmaz, sensiz olmaz
Tanıdık kokular yok
Sensiz olmaz
Kahvaltım anlamsızdı
Sensiz olmaz, sensiz olmaz
İlk sigaram bile tatsızdı
Sensiz olmaz
Anlaşılan alışmışım
Sensiz olmaz, sensiz olmaz
Bir verdiysem iki almışım
Sensiz olmaz
Aşk bir dengesizlik işi
Sensiz olmaz, sensiz olmaz
Dengeye dönüşen bir sevgi
Sensiz olmaz

Yine kendi kendime sormadan duramadım
Niye seni böyle istiyorum diye bulamadım

Yalnızlık zor, sokaklar çıkmaz
Sensiz olmaz, sensiz olmaz
Hep tekdüze, herşey dümdüz
Sensiz olmaz
Anlamak çözmeye yetmez
Sensiz olmaz, sensiz olmaz
Biraz telaşlı, huzursuz
Sensiz olmaz

Yine kendi kendime sormadan duramadım
Niye seni böyle istiyorum diye bulamadım

Gece gelmiş, yatağım boş
Sensiz olmaz, sensiz olmaz
Sen uzaktasın, ben uzanmış
Sensiz olmaz
Anlamak çözmeye yetmez
Sensiz olmaz, sensiz olmaz
Biraz telaşlı, biraz huzursuz
Sensiz olmaz

Yine kendi kendime sormadan duramadım
Niye seni böyle istiyorum diye bulamadım.....
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Ooooof offf, bi iç çeksem karşıki dağlar yıkılır!!!

My EvoLoTioN!! {from past to future}

HeLLooo!!
A few days ago; when Tadej sent me his childhood pic (which was extremely sweet); i started to think about my babyhood and childhood appearances. I looked at my old photo albums; and i decided that babies are sweet:))
Noooowwww:
=My Evolotion=

This is me when i was just some months old:) My teeth look funny:)=
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I am only 7-8 months old in this pic. i seem like i was a little bit afraid:)
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I don't remember how old was i in this pic. But it seems like; i escaped from bathroom:))
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I guess i was 4-5. smiling cheerfully:)
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I really look like a girl in this pic:))
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After this age(i guess 7), my brother was born, then another was born; so my parents' interest on me reduced and they took less pics of me; so don't have much more pics.
Now my newest pic:
It has taken 2 days ago in the desolated cabin of our school. While my friend was taking this pic; the boys who were playing football started look at me; and i wanted to laugh; but as you see in the pic; i was trying not to laugh:)


So....
This is my short history. I've done not very important; but much things in these 17 years. You may see what years taught me. Even my smiles changed in 17 years..
i'll be 18 a few months later..
and i can't guess the changes on my smile after another 17 years...

My LoVeS :)

Here; i wanna tell you about my loves. But these loves are item. Beko thinks that my love is so dangerous for my health; but what can i do?? i like them. Beko; i like you too; but you are not healthy at all!!! i can't tell the reasons right now; cos your big brother reads this blog too:) Look; i care about you;)
Anyway; now the pics;

You can see my favourite team here:) I'm telling with order:
1: My favourite alcohol glass
2: Sour Cherry juice to put vodka in;)
3: Efes beer, small size for drinking anywhere
4: Efes Dark, strongest beer
5: My favourite drink; V0đKa!!!
6: My favourite wine; which i bought from Holland
7: Margarita with lemon
8: Mineral water for refreshing
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This is my other love; Nargile!!!! (water pipe) Drinking it is a great feeling, it makes you numb for some mins. oh; i LoVe it!!!
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This is Rakı; it is something like our national drinks:) we also call it 'lion milk' ;)
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Here are two things i LoVe!! AbSolut & İstanbul!!! what a great pic it is!!!
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This is me; while i am drinking nargile. i seem like a little drunk and dizzy in this pic; but i was not ;)

The MeSSaGe fRom this post:
There are something that you love; they are always there for you. when you feel alone, you just go them; they'll help you;) CoS they aRe y0ur buDDies!! F0ReVeR!!!