~dancing with tears in my eyes ~

There's a feeling I get when I look.. To the West.. And my spirit is crying for leaving...

Monday, May 30, 2005

yupppppiii!! no exams...

heyyy;
i am very happy now,ask why... my exams completely finished. Today we had religion exam,i cheated all the questions and i got 100:)). that means i am fully muslim:)). and i 80 from literature.whatever
And i understood that my non-speaking pen-pal wasn't angry with me. he said that there was a problem with his computer and cos of that he couldn't write me sth. yuppi!! i am very happy cos of that...
do you know what, i slept at 6:00 saturday night,actually it was sunday morning,cos i watched a talk show...this is my being-awake reckord:D
see ya soon. byeee

Friday, May 27, 2005

:::((((((( hey boy,you are killing me!

hi;:(((
today we had two exams, edebi metinler(i don't know what is it in english,it's a kind of literature) and english. both of them were good.
after school, i went to the internet cafe. my non-speaking penpal was online too. i couldn't succumb and i said 'hi' to him. he didn't speak, then i said 'hey'. he still haven't spoken!!!. i am so sad. why is he doing that? i can't undersatnd,what did i do?
i decided not to say anything to him.
tomorrow i will have math exam;so i am going to the course.
byeeee

Thursday, May 26, 2005

kako si?

halo;
it was another so...so day. we had 2 exams. Literature and history. of course i cheated a lot.hehe;)). i will have math exam at friday, so i must study. after internet cafe, i will go to course,i hope i will find a teacher.
i got bored a lot.life is too boring with school:((.
bye for now

Tuesday, May 24, 2005

sad...sad...

hey diary;
yesterday i had picnic with my uncle,his wife and my cousin. we enjoyed a lot.
greece won eurovision. i got angry very much. cos some part of their song includes turkish melodies and some dances they did were turkish dance! they ae thiefs. i can't believe that. we gave them 12 points,they gave us 0! you see faithful they are!
and i am very sad now, cos one of my dearest pen-pals is online now;and he didn't tell me even a hello! what is he trying to do? make me unhappy? i think that's his aim!
i had psychology exam today, it was so so. and in 4 days, i will have 6 more exams:(((.
i am very unhappy now,VERY. because of my non-speaking pen-pal.why don't he speak? ufff
see ya soon
bye

Saturday, May 21, 2005

why somebody always make me angry?

hey;
today was holiday at there,as you know. i am in internet cafe for hours.
yesterday i watched eurovision song contest with a great excitement!. i voted for Slovenia,Norway and Switzerland. but i think,last year's songs were better.
today, i got terribly,terrible angry. actually i was happy 20 minutes ago. one of my pen-pals is online now; but he still didn't write me a text. i guess he expects hello's from me:((. i am very agry cos of that. i can't breahe easily because of anger!
see ya soon
bye

Friday, May 20, 2005

listen this

UNBRAKE MY HEART; SAY YOU RESPECT ME AGAIN!!!
this message goes to sb. sb. knows sb ;)).

you broke my heart!!

hi;
yesterday was a terrible day. you ask why, that's why: i argued with my dear pals, i felt betrayed,disappointed.but i think i am right! i dislike unrespectfullness! everything starts with respect,i think. then i came to home, my moral was torrible. i couldn't eat anything,i couldn't sleep well.do you know what all of these events taught me: 'First impressions are deceptive!'. sometimes you think that your friend is not friendly enough and then you understand he/she likes you very much, supports you.and sometimes you think that your pal is a wonderful pal,he/she is one of the best pals at all times;and then you understand that he/she is not best at all.he/she doesn't respect you!! you see, my heart is terribly broken.
Today my best friend Cansel and i went to movie. We watched 'SpongeBob SquarePants' movie. it wasn't as good as we expect.Cansel and i are a big fan of SpongeBob;but we didn't like it very much. Diary;tomorrow is Cansel's bithday and i completely forgot it. what will i do??
i am very very excited;cos today is Eurovision semi final day!!! Turkey won't be in semi final,we'll be in final;but i am exciting!
see ya later. byee

Thursday, May 19, 2005

fuck analytic geometry's inventor!!!

hi;
today was terrible terrible. i had analytic geometry exam today. it was horrible. i could do only 4 questions. uffff,i don't know what will happens:((.
did i tell you that,i got 100 from english exam? it's the highest mark of the class:)))
at 21 may, there will be eurovision song contest. i am very excited about that! we will be the last,cos our song is sucks!!
tomorrow and friday is holiday in Turkey;cos there is youth festival!!
see ya later!

Wednesday, May 18, 2005

angry!!! i am angry!!!!

Dear Diary,
i am very angry now,i will tell you later what happened. fisrt,i wanna tell what happened at weekend.
At saturday,my family and i went to American Betsy in Adana. it was very enjoyable. i bought American chocolates and sodas from there with dollar.mmm these are very delicious. i wanna go there again! it was like a small America! There were a lot of American people.
And i will tell why i am angry today. Today, our last 3 lessons was empty,so we escaped from school. i will have analytic geometry exam tomorrow,that's very important,so i went course(school helper course). i tried to find a teacher who can teach me analytic geo. subjects. but i couldn't find one. and i got angry a lot. i sweared to sb.,i kicked the walls,kicked the doors...
and i regret not to breake the door. i hate this course! i will get 0,if i won't be able to cheat!!!
and you know what happened then? i came to internet cafe,one of my pals,Tadej was online and he meant that i was boring:(((. i can't understand. why??
ok,see ya later
byee

Friday, May 13, 2005

boring,boring,boring.....

Dear Diary,
Today was very funny. At school me and 5 more friends ate kebap at the lunch break,during the lunch,we made jokes,laughed a lot.it was very funny.
I always write funny compositions for literature lesson. Yesterday i wrote one more. Today i read it in the lesson,teacher liked it very much. He said my writing will ve publish on the newspaper. yuppi!
And today we had composition and fast reading exam. at comp. exam,there was a very stupid topic-honor. Nothing came to my mind,it was awful. fast reading exam was better. i cheated like all the time:))).
see ya later. byeee

Monday, May 09, 2005

different ways...

Dear diary;
Today i am very angry. ask me why. You remember we were preparing a supply for school.And today our teacher told us 'he fire us'. i mean they decided to change the supply class.Our class is very angry,we won't make the supply. Teacher said that we are sucks. Ughhhh,i hate her!!.if we would make this supply,we'd get extra marks from literature!!.But now,we can't.
And today,our last 2 lessons was empty,teachers weren't at school. so,i escaped from school. At the way to home,i decided to try new ways,so i found new ways to home;but i walked more than normal:)). I understand that discovering is a wonderful feeling:)).
ufff, i am getting bored at there.i am going,byeeee

Friday, May 06, 2005

boring.....

diary;
Today was really boring.Everything is boring.
school was horrible.i slept during the lunch break.i got bored at here. i don't know what to do.
uffff.
bye for now

Thursday, May 05, 2005

happy or sad?

diary;
i don't know if i am happy or sad now. i am complicated.
do you know what happened yesterday?i was alone at home,i was hungry. i decided to boil egg. i bolied 4 eggs,and i could eat non of them.because all of them was underdone.i threw them to the rubbish to not to see my mother. and you know what happened last week? i was alone at home too,i boiled 8 eggs.7 of them was underdone.i could 1 of them and that was not very delicious.
Today,i took a cargo package. do you know where i get it from? i won it from Cosmogirl.it is a teenager magazine.i won 'skin cleaner' set and a little bag. but they seemed bigger in the magazine.they are so small! This is the first time i win sth.
today we had literature exam. questions are very hard.ufff:(((. i will get under 60:(((.
tomorrow i don't have exam,i am free today.yuppi:)).
bye

Tuesday, May 03, 2005

Drummer Girl:)))

Dear diary,
Today was very funny:))) i am still laughing. Our class is preaparing a supply for our school for Youth Festival. You know we have youth festival in 19 Mays. we were arguing about our supply, and we had a break. At the break,teachers went outside and we were at music room. We found some musical instruments.For example a drum,a tambourine, a tomtom,an organ and something i don't know its name. i beat the drum, my friends played the other instruments, we enjoyed a lot. And other friends danced. it was very funny,i was very bad at beating drum but no problem:) my hands hurt now, because i beat drum with my hands. Then our geography teacher came to the room. He said'İrem, you look silent in the class;however what talents you have!' It made me laugh a lot:))).
But i got angry today, because i started to read a book named'Turks'. this book made me angry,because some people said stupid things about Turks.
And today i got sad, because i lost my money,it was about 2$. i miss my money:(((...
Diary, do you know what happened at the weekend?You know at friday, i finished my site,and i went home at 22:45. My mother got angry to me very much,she shouted.Uff, i don't know what will i do, i can't live without internet.Well, i should finish my blog now,because Justy is waiting for it.
byeeeee

Monday, May 02, 2005

UFFFF.....

Dear diary;
Today was not good,not bad,soso. I had a very bad stomacheache. And you know what? I got 74 from math exam:(((((. i am very sad. Today it was sometimes raing,sometimes, windy,sometimes sunny in Adana.I like my blog very much.I have a friend named Justyna,she suggested me to have one. oh, thanks Justy:))I don't have time now,because i don't have money.I am brooke.My mom didn't give me my pocketmoney:((. You know i am in internet cafe. I will tell you what happened in weekend tomorrow.I promise,you know I do what i promise,right Michel;)......so, byeee for now